Thursday, July 07, 2005

things that make u say hmmmm

i'm stuck!i have a job trade that i love having but can't figure out if i like using it.by trade i'm a framer. building houses.every so often i get really tired of the terrible pain that my back endures while framing so i get the bright idea of looking fer another job.problem....nobody wants to hire a "dumb ass uneducated framer" to do shit for em. i love the hell out of framing but at the same time i hate it cuz it just continues to destroy my already jact up back!!so now i've gotten us and pretty much kept us in an extremely tight position of "oh shit how are we going to make our bills?" my life story!!!lack of motivation when most needed. only i don't feel that way.that's what i'm told is wrong with me.i feel i can do without.only now it's not just me it's us.and soon it'll be us with one more added to it.FUZZ!!!!!!!! i'm already stressed the freak out and have been since it was my turn to do all the werk.that's fine.i'll cope.i deserve that much.see Robyn has always taken care of us in the past.so she got pregnant and werked till unable to.fer awhile i had two jobs, frame during the day flip burgers at night.now and fer the past couple of months it's solely been flippen burgers part time.hardly enough to pay the bills!thank you Dr.Guthrie fer tha help!!!But now it's crunch time and no more help from pops!and robyn is feeling it really bad.therefore i'm feeling it even worse.she doesn't feel like she can count on me.and i'm not saying that's unjust.i've tried and been trying to support us.could have, should have tried harder. i know. so since nobody wants to hire me i ended up calling my old framing boss and begged him to give me werk that he doesn't have. in a week or so he's got a good sized house coming up to build fer a doctor that he said i could help out on.LONG LIVE THE DOCTORS!!!!and the cool ass framing bosses!!!so i'm back to square one......FRAMING.....
DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so shit on me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

to anybody who reads this i'm sorry u did so.just thinking out cyberly.......

8 Comments:

Blogger :| raven |: said...

Batman ...

i know it's hard and i know it's overwhelming. my son just went through this same thing ... except he had no job at all. period. (but that's another story) i have a 1 year old grandson now ....

anyway .. i understand the framing thing is hurting your back .. and that's important. once you screw up your back .. it will never really be the same. and i understand that the part time job just isn't cutting it for you.

have you considered doing some kind of day labor? we have something called Labor Ready ... you go in the morning, they send you out .. you get paid the same day. different kinds of jobs .. construction, painting, mainteance .. and lots of times those jobs turn into permanent gigs ..

don't sell yourself short. you're not a dumb framer. look at the things you LIKE to do ... and see if you can find a job in that field. any custom chopper shops? motorcycle shops?

i know you feel overwhelmed with thinking about taking care of a family ... but it's so worth it ... and i know you'll hang tough. think positive .. do you have assistance programs? i'm sure you guys could qualify for some help .. which is not a shameful thing. lots of people need help now and then .... 4 years ago i made $65,000 a year .. then got laid off ... twice .. then lost my house ... and most everything i owned ... and had to get help.

Robyn .. are you on WIC?

email me girl .. if i can help ...

6:56 PM  
Blogger sqwerrl said...

raven u r just too sweet.the things u say r so encouraging and such a good person.i do try to keep my head high and stay hopefull fer tha future.aside from tha fact that this is something i have to do i also want to do it.i want to give my wife and kid the best.i know it may take some timebut i'm down!thank you fer yer encouraging words and suggestions. u rock!

7:15 PM  
Blogger Jamie Dawn said...

I hope your back either gets better or you find a new line of work. Keep trying the best you can.
That new baby will delight you and inspire you to keep on...

11:10 PM  
Blogger Chris said...

In my mind that is what seperates the men from the boys: provding for your family. Congrats for realizing what you needed to do, and then actually doing it.

Deciding what kind of work you like to do is somewhat harder. What kinds of things are you interested in? Perhaps Motorcycles? How about trying to get a job selling Motorcycles? Or how about apprentice mechanic in a shop? Not qualified? What will it take to be qualified? Night courses in mechanics?

It is not easy, but the rewards for being there for your family, and doing work that you love is worth it.

3:42 PM  
Blogger Amy said...

I kind of joked with your woman about it in my blog, but if you think you might be interested in sales, and I think you have the personality for it, look into Kirby. It is a really good company and my husband has done amazingly well with it after five years of dead end jobs. I am sure there is an office near you. It won't be called Kirby, just look in the employment section for a sales job. When you call them about it, if they mention a "cleaning device" or something to that effect, it's probably Kirby. They don't generally come out and say Kirby because few people think they can really make a living selling vacuums. But you can and the opportunities for advancement are nearly endless.

6:50 PM  
Blogger sqwerrl said...

i've tried the whole kirby thing and unfortunately i couldn't sell a slurpee to satan himself.but thank you amy fer the great idea.

Emily thank you for the questions.

chris thank you also fer the great ideas. the bike thing werks for me.
i've not thought of that one yet.(swift kick in the head)!

12:39 PM  
Blogger sqwerrl said...

jamie dawn thinks for tha encouragement as well.

12:40 PM  
Blogger Amy said...

You can rock the motorcycle house down, Batman! Sink your teeth in like a grouchy ol' bull dog and don't let go to you've made it work for you!

5:06 PM  

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